Self-Portrait

One of my regular readers (when I write regularly ;-)), Jan Mckenzie, asked in a comment to the previous post (Tools) if I would include a self-portrait. He must have realized that the request would result in more than just putting up a snapshot.

Self-portraits are always more than mere pictures; they speak to the artist’s/author’s view of themselves, on many levels. While the included picture is visual it is also descriptively so.

I am not “dressed up”; I have not shaved in two days, and my hair (what is there) is, well, just there. It is the everyday me; the me that focuses on the task at hand rather than the mundane maintenance requirements of daily life. Oh, I will do all of the “necessities” before I go somewhere I have to present myself, but those things are secondary. What is not secondary is the picture on my desktop. It is my favorite portrait of my wife.

It was interesting to have a job for six months that required me to take care of the necessities on a daily basis. It takes a lot of time for business clothes, even business casual, and grooming. It also takes planning, shopping, and a real commitment to present an image. If I have a weakness in that context, it is when the demands of the job escalate, the commitment to that image flags and the necessities begin to falter a bit.

There are many areas of our lives that include these kinds of demarcations, the split between work and maintenance. Sometimes, the maintenance is significant, e.g. cars, computers, camera equipment, our spiritual lives (prayer, study, self-examination and repentance), to name a few. I will readily admit that I am weak on maintenance across the board. It is a real fight for me.

Some people try to avoid maintenance by “out with the old, in with the new.” New cars, appliances, houses, tools, even new relationships, do not need a lot of maintenance. Spiritually, some people find new churches, since that too reduces the maintenance load and momentarily energizes their Christian life.

I do not believe God approves of that solution. I think He is a firm believer in maintenance, and you have to look no further than the mirror to prove it. Assuming you have not gone completely apostate, He is still struggling with you, to mold the clay of your new creation into His chosen vessel. It is an ongoing job, requiring continuous maintenance, which he loving applies (though according to Hebrews 6 we do not always think it is so loving).

So, once again I am under conviction for my weak approach to maintenance. One could argue that proper maintenance shows appreciation for that which you maintain. God, I believe, expects us to appreciate that which He has given us. He expects us to take care of it, not to worship it, but to respect it and keep it up to snuff.

With that in mind, may God richly bless your efforts at respecting and maintaining the gifts He has given you, whatever (or whoever) they might be. Grace and peace and perseverance at the task be yours today, tomorrow, and into the future.

My Formal/Informal Self Portrait
William Meisheid Self Portrait Copyright 2006
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  3 comments for “Self-Portrait

  1. Keith Valentine
    September 7, 2006 at 10:30 am

    Yup, that’s you alright. 🙂 Well captured.

    Good to see you posting again!

    Keith

  2. jan
    September 7, 2006 at 1:26 pm

    I good ‘view’, William, and far be it for me to offer you a maintenance schedule.

    Not long ago I was sitting on the sofa feeling scruffy. I asked my wife what she thought of me shaving my beard down to what an old friend used to call a ‘goats tail’. She was a little more postive about the idea than I liked. I now have a goatee, look younger I’m told, yet still have something to give my weak and aging chin some definition. Vanity, vanity…

    I appreciate the photo and the post, as well as your honourable mention.

    You made a reference to your job of six months in the past tense. What’s the latest on work?

  3. jan
    September 7, 2006 at 1:42 pm

    BTW…I just posted on your post and included your pic on my blog. Ok? I assumed you wouldn’t mind my sharing the photo, but you know I’ll take it down if you prefer, which I hope you don’t 🙂

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